White Fluffy Clouds video with lyrics & where the song came from

Hi!

So I did a new video the other day, this time of ‘White Fluffy Clouds’.

This song has been kicking around for quite some time. If I’m performing, it’s normally what I open with because I guess it’s one of those songs that I’ve written that I’m almost 100% happy with, which is not normal for me.
Also, I suppose it’s quite a special song for me, firstly because the first line in the song is “I very badly need to go running, I feel pent up in my own body”. And that is a way that I very often feel, so I can pretty much always relate to this song. When I was performing it for this video actually, I felt that way. I had had too much coffee and I couldn’t freakin’ get my fingers to do what they should, and I just wanted to GO! But I knuckled down and got it done, which felt better in the end.

I wrote this song when I was living in Barcelona, Spain, where I lived for 6 years. I believe…yes, I wrote this song while in the very last place I lived in Spain (I moved around quite a lot, I think I lived in 6 or 7 different place in all.) This last place I lived was located RIGHT by the only active bull fighting ring in Barcelona! I could actually see where the bulls were kept. The inner walls for the actual ring were much higher, but from my fourth floor balcony, I could see over the lower walls to where the bulls were kept. It’s really very sad. Anyway, I remember so well the feeling of being in that room, looking out down below at the world go by, and feeling quite trapped within myself. I wrote these words in one sitting, and as the song says, I did actually go out for a run after I wrote it. It helped me. I did go on to having “lovely boring jobs”, but I did not last in them 🙂 They were not lovely for long.

Okay, I will leave you with that. For those that are interested, the lyrics are below.
Thanks for reading and watching!
If you liked this video, please make sure to ‘like’ it and also to share it. It really helps me out.
Also, you can listen to or buy the mastered recording of this song here:

~ Ciara

White Fluffy Clouds

I very badly need to go running
I feel pent up in my own body.
It’s incredible that I won’t be alive forever
and incredible that I don’t make the most of it now.
I need to put on my shoes and go running
tie my hair up so it doesn’t bother me
I need to step out under the sun
in the hope I can again become
a part of the world I live in.

I could so easily be a hermit
but that would surely be the end of it
the final leap into madness,
the nearby ledge overlooking the abyss
I would miss my friends
I would miss my family
but would soon become demented
and in that state you see
avoiding and missing them would be better than
company and revealing the insanity within
Well, if only I talked more and if only I were capable
of telling people when I need help
instead of hoping they might be able
to read my mind or at least the part of my mind
that shouldn’t be censored
so not that much of it really…

This is an open letter
to anyone that has two eyes:
I’m not doing so good
I’m not doing so good

It’s a beautiful day and people below move about their day
As per often I feel removed from them all
I think I need a normal job
so I too can feel normal and join the ranks of
everyone that complains about their lovely boring job.
But just for now putting on my shoes
and going running
might be all that I need
for a vital dose of sweet reality
I’ll run by the beach and try to
shut off my mind
I’ll run by the beach and try to
match my speed to
that of the world around
though I don’t quite know how
and then I’ll look for a lovely, lovely, lovely boring job.

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